To This Day.....What is really happening?

"Paradise In Me"

Consuming far too much
Ignoring the will to touch
The ones who don't have food at all...

I'm breathing
I'm wondering how
We watch Wheel of Fortune now
I close my eyes and try to see
A piece of paradise in me

Beat me up
And smash my brand new TV
To help me look for
A little piece of paradise in me

I'm dancing, I'm writing songs
About what bothers me the most
About those who can't dance at all...

I'm only jumping
I'm only freaking out
And I wonder what it's all about
To close my eyes and finally see
A piece of paradise in me

Beat me up
And smash my brand new TV
To help me look for
A little piece of paradise in me
A little piece of paradise in me

~K's Choice

So Sometimes Hate the NIght

"Here Comes The Night"

Oooh, here it comes
Here comes the night
Here comes the night
Whoa, whoa, whoa, oh-yeah

I can see right out my window
Walkin' down the street my girl with another guy
Arms around her like it used to be with me
Oh, it makes me wanna die

Hey, well here it comes
Here comes the night
Here comes the night
Whoa-oh-oh-yeah

I can see him turning down the lights
Now he's holdin' her the way I used to do
Used to do, used to do

I can see her talkin' 'round an' tellin' them lies
Exactly like she told me, too
Whoa, here it comes
Here comes the night
Here comes the night
Whoa-oh-oh-yeah
Well

[Instrumental]

Oh, there they go
It's funny how they look so good together
Wonder what is wrong with me?
Why can't I except the fact
She's chosen him and simply let them be?
Let them be

Well, here it comes
Good God, here comes the night
Here comes the night
Lonely, lonely, lonely, night

Give it to me lonely
Give it to me lonely

Give it to me lonely
Give it to me lonely

Tellin' me I'm lonely
Tellin' me the lone
The lonely, lonely night

Give it to me lonely
Give it to me lone
Give it to me lone
Give it to me lonely

I will be alone
Give it to me lone
Tell in me the lonely nights

Here comes the night
Oh-whoa-whoa-oh, yeah-yeah

~Van Morrison

Kinda Always Knew.......

Funny story... ain't the first time I have sang this song...

Knew it with Cory

Didn't know it with Bobby (sort of)

Wish I did.

I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them
And you know it makes me sick to be on that list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed

You say you're gonna burn before you mellow
I will be the one to burn you
Why'd you have to go and pick me?
When you knew that we were different, completely

I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend 

I'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed

Your wildness scares me 
So does your freedom
You say you can't stand the restrictions
I find myself trying to change you
If you were meant to be my lover I wouldn't have to

And I feel so mean, I feel in between
'Cause I'm about to give you away

I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend (for someone else to take)
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend (am I making a mistake?)
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them (all the time that we wasted)
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girl, friend

I'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed
I'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed 

I'm about to give you away for someone else to take
I'm about to give you away for someone else to take

We keep repeating mistakes for souvenirs
And we've been in between the days for years
And I know that when I see you I'm going to die
I know I'm going to want you and you know why
It's going to kill me to see you with the next girl
'Cause I'm the most gorgeously jealous kind of ex-girl

But I should have thought of that before we kissed...

I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend 
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them 
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend

I'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed
I'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed

~No Doubt

Will I ever stop singing this motherfucking song???!

The Heart wants what The Heart wants

Illustration by Enkel Dika

One Thing...

Restless tonight

'Cause I wasted the light

Between both these times

I drew a really thin line

Its nothing I planned

And not that I can

But you should be mine

Across that line

If I traded it all, if I gave it all away

For one thing, just for one thing

If I sorted it out, if I knew all about

This one thing wouldnt that be something

I promise I might

Not walk on by

Maybe next time

But not this time

Even though I know

I dont want to know

Yeah, I guess I know

I just hate how it sounds

If I traded it all, if I gave it all away

For one thing, just for one thing

If I sorted it out, if I knew all about

This one thing wouldnt that be something

If I traded it all, if I gave it all away

For one thing, just for one thing

If I sorted it out, if I knew all about

This one thing wouldnt that be something

Even though I know

I dont want to know

Yeah, I guess I know

I just hate how it sounds

Even though I know

I dont want to know

Yeah, I guess I know

I just hate how it sounds

If I traded it all, if I gave it all away

For one thing, just for one thing

If I sorted it out, if I knew all about

This one thing wouldnt that be something

If I traded it all, if I gave it all away

For one thing, just for one thing

If I sorted it out, if I knew all about

This one thing wouldnt that be something

If I traded it all, if I gave it all away

For one thing, just for one thing

If I sorted it out, if I knew all about

This one thing wouldnt that be something

If I traded it all, if I gave it all away

For one thing, just for one thing

If I sorted it out, if I knew all about

This one thing wouldnt that be something

~Finger 11

Fucking God Damm Mother Fucker Seriously Fucking Hell. Fuck me.

Bobby dumped me on February 28.

Been 9 years.

Fucking sucks so much balls.

Barf.

Feel better today thanks to Dance Therapy with the Scissor Sisters.

Take Your Mama

When you grow up
Livin' like a good boy oughta
And your mama
Takes a shine to her best son
Something different
All the girls they seem to like you
Cause you're handsome
Like to talk and a whole lot of fun

But now your girl's gone a missin'
And your house has got an empty bed
The folks'll wonder 'bout the wedding
They won't listen to a word you said

[Chorus]
Gonna take your mama out all night
Yeah we'll show her what it's all about
We'll get her jacked up on some cheap champagne
We'll let the good times all roll out
And if the music ain't good, well it's just too bad
We're gonna sing along no matter what
Because the dancers don't mind at the New Orleans
If you tip 'em and they make a cut

Do it
Take your mama out all night
So she'll have no doubt
That we're doing oh the best we can
We're gonna do it
Take your mama out all night
You can stay up late
'cause baby you're a full grown man

It's a struggle
Livin' like a good boy oughta
In the summer
Watchin' all the girls pass by
When your mama
Heard the way that you'd been talking
I tried to tell you
That all she'd wanna do is cry

Now we end up takin' the long way home
Lookin' overdressed wearin' buckets of stale cologne
It's so hard to see streets on a country road
When your glasses in the garbage
And your Continental's just been towed

Well I'm Home

Missy got off the bus one day in a crowded depot, downtown LA
She looked around as if to say, 'I'm home'
Well I'm home

I find someone to love
And some place to drink
And some time when I can just sit and think
And I don't mind if I catch the stink of these drones
Lord, of these drones
Just as long as I'm never alone

She had eyes as big as porcelain plates
And skin as thin as paper drapes
And she loved the Lord the way an apostate loves songs
And she'd sing to him before she went to sleep,
"I pray to you, my soul to keep
You're shepherd, then I'll be your sheep until dawn
Oh until dawn
Well I'd follow you, even if it was wrong"

I met her one night at the coffee shop
Her face so bright, my heart just stopped
Hello my dear, I fear I'm not what I seem
Not what I seem
I should've become a better man
I should be more deserving than
The beggar, thief, and courtesan I've been
Oh, that I've been
Well I swear, I lie, I curse all of my dreams

But I swear there's still some good in me
And I think if you stuck around you'd see
All the honest attempts at integrity, I was had
Maybe if you helped me, I'd get it right
I stay awake every night, staring at the ceiling
Wondering why I feel so bad, why I feel so bad
Oh I swear, I swear, I swear I'll never get sad

~The Airborne Toxic Event

Happy 9th Anniversary Vancouver!!!

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