Roo's First SK Winter

"Guess I will grow myself some boots!!?!!??" says, The Roo

It's been 20 years since I've lived a winter in Saskatchewan.  

It's not so bad really.  Kinda good really.

But The Roo and I still have a longing for the West Coast in the winter.  

That will always be.

Dead Letter and Infinite Yes

I found a letter it read 
"Our existence has serious side effects" 
Turned on, turned on the television 
It's telling me the world is collapsing 
I think it's coming and it comes so fast 
I'm hearing whispers of an infinite yes 
And I don't know why it is 
Our bodies are dead, why you look so sad? 

And my therapist said 
"We've evolved through a series of accidents" 
There's been talk of chemical imbalances 
Restless sense of detachment, nausea and or violence 

I think it's coming and it comes so fast 
I'm hearing whispers of an infinite yes 
And I don't know why it is 
I feel it coming, I think it's real and significant 
I think I think I think a little too often 
That's what my therapist said 
We're alone in this wilderness 
Left to choke on the pills and to feed on the viruses 
I think it's coming and it comes so fast 

I think it's coming and it comes so fast 
I'm hearing whispers of an infinite yes 
Our bodies are dead, why you look so sad 
Our bodies are dead, why you look so sad 

~Wintersleep

To This Day.....What is really happening?

"Paradise In Me"

Consuming far too much
Ignoring the will to touch
The ones who don't have food at all...

I'm breathing
I'm wondering how
We watch Wheel of Fortune now
I close my eyes and try to see
A piece of paradise in me

Beat me up
And smash my brand new TV
To help me look for
A little piece of paradise in me

I'm dancing, I'm writing songs
About what bothers me the most
About those who can't dance at all...

I'm only jumping
I'm only freaking out
And I wonder what it's all about
To close my eyes and finally see
A piece of paradise in me

Beat me up
And smash my brand new TV
To help me look for
A little piece of paradise in me
A little piece of paradise in me

~K's Choice

So Sometimes Hate the NIght

"Here Comes The Night"

Oooh, here it comes
Here comes the night
Here comes the night
Whoa, whoa, whoa, oh-yeah

I can see right out my window
Walkin' down the street my girl with another guy
Arms around her like it used to be with me
Oh, it makes me wanna die

Hey, well here it comes
Here comes the night
Here comes the night
Whoa-oh-oh-yeah

I can see him turning down the lights
Now he's holdin' her the way I used to do
Used to do, used to do

I can see her talkin' 'round an' tellin' them lies
Exactly like she told me, too
Whoa, here it comes
Here comes the night
Here comes the night
Whoa-oh-oh-yeah
Well

[Instrumental]

Oh, there they go
It's funny how they look so good together
Wonder what is wrong with me?
Why can't I except the fact
She's chosen him and simply let them be?
Let them be

Well, here it comes
Good God, here comes the night
Here comes the night
Lonely, lonely, lonely, night

Give it to me lonely
Give it to me lonely

Give it to me lonely
Give it to me lonely

Tellin' me I'm lonely
Tellin' me the lone
The lonely, lonely night

Give it to me lonely
Give it to me lone
Give it to me lone
Give it to me lonely

I will be alone
Give it to me lone
Tell in me the lonely nights

Here comes the night
Oh-whoa-whoa-oh, yeah-yeah

~Van Morrison

Kinda Always Knew.......

Funny story... ain't the first time I have sang this song...

Knew it with Cory

Didn't know it with Bobby (sort of)

Wish I did.

I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them
And you know it makes me sick to be on that list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed

You say you're gonna burn before you mellow
I will be the one to burn you
Why'd you have to go and pick me?
When you knew that we were different, completely

I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend 

I'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed

Your wildness scares me 
So does your freedom
You say you can't stand the restrictions
I find myself trying to change you
If you were meant to be my lover I wouldn't have to

And I feel so mean, I feel in between
'Cause I'm about to give you away

I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend (for someone else to take)
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend (am I making a mistake?)
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them (all the time that we wasted)
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girl, friend

I'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed
I'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed 

I'm about to give you away for someone else to take
I'm about to give you away for someone else to take

We keep repeating mistakes for souvenirs
And we've been in between the days for years
And I know that when I see you I'm going to die
I know I'm going to want you and you know why
It's going to kill me to see you with the next girl
'Cause I'm the most gorgeously jealous kind of ex-girl

But I should have thought of that before we kissed...

I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend 
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them 
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend

I'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed
I'm another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed

~No Doubt

Will I ever stop singing this motherfucking song???!

The Heart wants what The Heart wants

Illustration by Enkel Dika

One Thing...

Restless tonight

'Cause I wasted the light

Between both these times

I drew a really thin line

Its nothing I planned

And not that I can

But you should be mine

Across that line

If I traded it all, if I gave it all away

For one thing, just for one thing

If I sorted it out, if I knew all about

This one thing wouldnt that be something

I promise I might

Not walk on by

Maybe next time

But not this time

Even though I know

I dont want to know

Yeah, I guess I know

I just hate how it sounds

If I traded it all, if I gave it all away

For one thing, just for one thing

If I sorted it out, if I knew all about

This one thing wouldnt that be something

If I traded it all, if I gave it all away

For one thing, just for one thing

If I sorted it out, if I knew all about

This one thing wouldnt that be something

Even though I know

I dont want to know

Yeah, I guess I know

I just hate how it sounds

Even though I know

I dont want to know

Yeah, I guess I know

I just hate how it sounds

If I traded it all, if I gave it all away

For one thing, just for one thing

If I sorted it out, if I knew all about

This one thing wouldnt that be something

If I traded it all, if I gave it all away

For one thing, just for one thing

If I sorted it out, if I knew all about

This one thing wouldnt that be something

If I traded it all, if I gave it all away

For one thing, just for one thing

If I sorted it out, if I knew all about

This one thing wouldnt that be something

If I traded it all, if I gave it all away

For one thing, just for one thing

If I sorted it out, if I knew all about

This one thing wouldnt that be something

~Finger 11

Fucking God Damm Mother Fucker Seriously Fucking Hell. Fuck me.

Bobby dumped me on February 28.

Been 9 years.

Fucking sucks so much balls.

Barf.

Feel better today thanks to Dance Therapy with the Scissor Sisters.

Take Your Mama

When you grow up
Livin' like a good boy oughta
And your mama
Takes a shine to her best son
Something different
All the girls they seem to like you
Cause you're handsome
Like to talk and a whole lot of fun

But now your girl's gone a missin'
And your house has got an empty bed
The folks'll wonder 'bout the wedding
They won't listen to a word you said

[Chorus]
Gonna take your mama out all night
Yeah we'll show her what it's all about
We'll get her jacked up on some cheap champagne
We'll let the good times all roll out
And if the music ain't good, well it's just too bad
We're gonna sing along no matter what
Because the dancers don't mind at the New Orleans
If you tip 'em and they make a cut

Do it
Take your mama out all night
So she'll have no doubt
That we're doing oh the best we can
We're gonna do it
Take your mama out all night
You can stay up late
'cause baby you're a full grown man

It's a struggle
Livin' like a good boy oughta
In the summer
Watchin' all the girls pass by
When your mama
Heard the way that you'd been talking
I tried to tell you
That all she'd wanna do is cry

Now we end up takin' the long way home
Lookin' overdressed wearin' buckets of stale cologne
It's so hard to see streets on a country road
When your glasses in the garbage
And your Continental's just been towed

Well I'm Home

Missy got off the bus one day in a crowded depot, downtown LA
She looked around as if to say, 'I'm home'
Well I'm home

I find someone to love
And some place to drink
And some time when I can just sit and think
And I don't mind if I catch the stink of these drones
Lord, of these drones
Just as long as I'm never alone

She had eyes as big as porcelain plates
And skin as thin as paper drapes
And she loved the Lord the way an apostate loves songs
And she'd sing to him before she went to sleep,
"I pray to you, my soul to keep
You're shepherd, then I'll be your sheep until dawn
Oh until dawn
Well I'd follow you, even if it was wrong"

I met her one night at the coffee shop
Her face so bright, my heart just stopped
Hello my dear, I fear I'm not what I seem
Not what I seem
I should've become a better man
I should be more deserving than
The beggar, thief, and courtesan I've been
Oh, that I've been
Well I swear, I lie, I curse all of my dreams

But I swear there's still some good in me
And I think if you stuck around you'd see
All the honest attempts at integrity, I was had
Maybe if you helped me, I'd get it right
I stay awake every night, staring at the ceiling
Wondering why I feel so bad, why I feel so bad
Oh I swear, I swear, I swear I'll never get sad

~The Airborne Toxic Event

Happy 9th Anniversary Vancouver!!!

Mwah Mwah Mwah Mwah!!!

**Super Smilie Face**

Rest in Peace Fraggle.

Oh.  Seriously one of the nicest guys I've ever met.  

Gone way too soon.

Oh The Smell of Pencil Shavings

This beauty from Boston came out of a studio that used to built models in East Van.  And that building is now going to be a rehearsal studio.  I am so very super extremely exited for Bobby.   

Suna Studios, baby. 

ComeDown

love and hate get it wrong
she cut me right back down to size
sleep the day let it fade
who was there to take your place
no one knows never will
mostly me but mostly you
what do you say do you do
when it all comes down

cause I don't want to come back down from this cloud
it's taken me all this time to find out what I need yeah
I don't want to come back down from this cloud
taken me all this time to find out what I need

there's no blame only shame
when you beg you just complain
the more I come the more I try
all police are paranoid
so am I so's the future
so are you be a creature
what do you say do you do when it all comes down

'Cause I don't want to come back down from this cloud
it's taken me all this time to find out what I need (yea, yea, yea)
'Cause I don't wanna come back down from this cloud
it's taken me all this (all this)time

Shoot up
Shoot up
Shoot up
You're high

Love and hate get it wrong
she cut me right down to size
sleep the day, let it fade
who was there to take your place
no one knows never will
mostly me but mostly you
what do you say so you do when it all comes down

'Cause I don't want to come back down from this cloud
it's taken me all this time to find out what I need (yea, yea, yea)
'Cause I don't wanna come back down from this cloud
it's taken me all this (all this)time

Why did you
why did you
why did you
why did you
why did you
why did you
why did you
why did you
why did you come down
I don't wanna come back down from this cloud (this cloud, this cloud, this cloud this, this cloud, this cloud, this cloud, this cloud, this cloud, this cloud)

~By Bush

Golden Shoes

Another reason I love Vancouver..Gay weddings!!  I love wedding in general but Gay weddings make me so happy!!!  Instead of party favors the Grooms gave to the SPCA, and t'was an open bar!!!!  I love my Golden shoes!

Shhhhh.....

Everyone just needs to calm the fuck down.  Seriously.  Fuck.

What's so wrong with being happy?

Warning

I'm in Love with My Birthday Week!

I'm tired of blood and over priced bubble gum, mom 
nobody wake up there's nothing you could have done wrong 
I'm wearing the same grin, I take it all on the chin 
I still believe everything that I read 
and sometimes it's hard, sometimes it's harder 
sometimes it's on sale, sometimes it never fails 
I have a psychic and she says I'm lonely 
she says my destiny is turning out all wrong 
so now I just sit here 
and think of meaningful things to say 

Symbolistic white walls 
surround me and you 
every single day 
I am cheap and see through 

I'm tired of blood and over priced bubble gum 
nobody moves and nobody gets hurt for very long 
I'm wearing the same skin, I take it all on the chin 
I still believe everything that I hear 
and sometimes it's easy, sometimes it's easier 
and sometimes it's all free 
I have a psychic and she says I'm lonely 
she says inside of me is turning out all wrong 
so now I just sit here 
and think of meaningless things to say 

It's all right now 
take the world and make it yours again

~Matthew Good Band

June 25, 2013

2007

Still feelin' kinda the same way. ...

Vic Toria !!!

Happy Summer Solstice !!!

You Know that Awkward Moment when Your Family Has a Super Blow out Discussion

About something super important.

Like 12 Therapy secession at once!!

Wasn't My Family.  I so admire Bobby.  Heavy stuff.

You Know That Awkward Moment When Your status become a PM!